Today...was a really good day already!

I just have some random thoughts about life that I wanted to write down today. Because for the last six years lots of things in our lives as far as relationships goes have been full of drama, sadness, and insanity. You see when people divorce and have adult children it brings a whole set of problems that didn't exist previously for those adult children, but then when you throw a 'new' person into the mix as either the new wife or new husband life gets a little topsy turvy in those same children! I used to believe when you divorce then it's done and over but life has proven to me that this is just not the case if there are children involved even if they are adult children. I was very insecure when I married Chad 6 years ago, because the baggage I brought with me from my previous life didn't lend to much confidence that someone could love me for me. So I was afraid of everyone and everything. I have 'grown' in the past several months to realize (probably been growing for 6 years:)) but anyway to realize that Chad loves me and we were meant to be together. It does not however delete his life before me just as me loving him does not delete my life before him. We took a trip to Texas in January that was really enlightening to me in a way I hadn't noticed before. My three kids that were there in Texas had a difficult time because of the torn 'relationship' of their father and me. We have issues, I have been plenty willing to give up those issues and have a decent relationship with my ex for the sake of my kids and the sake of myself but he can't let go of the past. He could when he was married to his second wife but now that I am remarried it is all a different story. Anyway I saw how that was tearing at my 3 children and I realized it just isn't worth it. Chad and I have had that kind of relationship in the past 6 years with his ex Gretchen and I realized it must tear at his kids in the same way it was tearing at mine. I have given a lot of thought for probably the past several months (since last May) about how short our lives really are and how much we miss when we resolve to let pettiness and our own selfishness get in the way of 'relationships' and how they should be. We have missed out on grandchildrens' births, and so much more with some of his children and my sons and I don't want to miss anything else and I know Chad doesn't. He is such a kind hearted and loving man and he loves deeply.So I reached out to Gretchen and asked if we could mend the relationship for the sake of us all. She was more than willing to work on this with us. We just had a really good lunch with Gretchen and Kaden. We talked about issues and feelings and I realize that just because two people can't work in a marriage it doesn't make one or the other of the two people a 'bad' person. Oil and water do not mix! Just as sometimes things happen in life that mess with the 'mixture' of two people. I want Chad and I to have a relationship with all of his kids just as I want good relationships with my four children, and someone has to initiate the 'working through'. I chose that position as initiator and I'm glad I did. I think I could actually come to understand and be a friend to Gretchen (I know I am gonna try)we are all family after all. We are looking forward now to being one big happy family, I sure hope we all can look forward to our future and let the past stay in the past! People change as they age, and I think we have all changed. Life is good, and it is gonna just get better and better!

Keleigh giggles!

Sarah is spending time with Jennifer this week in Spanish Fork and they called me tonight to listen to Keleigh giggle! I have been trying for a couple weeks to get a giggle and she has been trying but couldn't quite get the "real" giggle out! But tonight I got to hear that sweet sound of a baby giggle! Now Keleigh and Jordan will be giggling together a lot I imagine! It's so fun watching the babies learn new things isn't it! I will post an updated pic when she comes home!

Easter Bunny is on his way!

We saw the Easter Bunny sneaking around and we know he is on his way here! I'm really excited for Easter this year, for a number of reasons! One reason is because I'm so excited for Spring, because it means great motorcycle riding weather, fun outside with grandkids, working in the yard, my math class will be over! Another reason is because this year Easter is bringing us one more grandson! We had two born last year around Easter and this year Macey will join us and Jordan and Kaden will each turn one~! I think as each year goes by I get more and more excited to spend time with grandchildren. I wish they all lived around us so we could have lots of grandkid time! I wonder if it is because they say you revert to your childhood ways as you age? We aren't that old yet I hope! But it is a lot of fun watching them grow. We are going to Jennifer's in Spanish Fork on Sunday for Easter lunch and some egg hunting. We are hoping to have other family to our house either Saturday or Sunday dinner but we haven't heard back from them yet. I love cooking, and I love doing it for family. I like to invent new recipes for them to try. So I've been thinking what I can make for Sunday that will be a hit! I LOVE SPRING!

Creative Chad

Chad has been busy the last couple months woodworking! He has built decorative shelves for me, shoe racks for me and Sarah, and these cute little decorative things that Jennifer and I use. Jennifer bought me this little set of wooden letters at Christmas that spell HOME but you change the O out at different seasons, with it she bought me the wrapped gift for Christmas season, the acorn for fall, the witches hat for Halloween, the turkey for Thanksgiving. So we enlisted Chad to make us the rest of the wooden pieces for the other holidays and seasons. Jennifer actually cut us both out a heart and painted them for Valentines. Chad cut us out shamrocks for St. Pattys day, an egg (which we each painted with our own ideas)for Easter, a lady bug (Chads idea) for Spring, a sunflower for August, and a star painted red, white and blue for the 4th of July as well as a snowman I need to decorate for January. It has been really fun watching him work on these little things for us. He made both Jennifer and me a set of the little HOME things. We are trying to talk him into cutting out more things for us, and we are thinking we could sell them at fairs or something! I'll post some pics of our decor! I love decorating the house for holidays and seasons! So much fun! Chad is really creative, he remodeled our house and added a lot of nice features including an entryway we didn't have before and my mother-in-law Beulah bought us some beautiful decor to decorate it! I love changing little things in the entryway for the different holidays/seasons! I will post the pics later today!

Ebay...Chad's past time!

Chad has found out how "fun" ebay is!(not my personal opinion) He decided that he couldn't really 'use' all of his keyboards (since you can't play more than one at a time, or two) and they were really not gaining value hanging out in our basement. So one at a time he got them out of the basement, set them up, checked them out, played with them...one last time and then took photo memories of them and posted them on ebay for sale. He was so excited when it was time for the bidding to wind down and couldn't handle not being on his computer. His laptop has been like an appendage for the last couple months while he has become an ebay wizard. He has really had a good time selling his keyboards, all in an effort to purchase a new one! He has used a Roland RD 700 stage piano since I met him, he bought it right after we started seeing each other back in September 02. But I guess before I knew him he had actually always played out at gigs using two keyboards. So he was all about getting an organ to use at his gigs with his Roland piano. So he started looking at Nords and Hammonds. Well he found what he wanted a Hammond B3 clone. Anyway I wanted to post a pic of him with his new toy! But that will come a little later, he has a gig tonight and I'll get a pic of him then! and post later. But for now this is his new set-up, the Hammond(his new toy) is the one on top!